"Sunday: Almost out of Bread and Butter?"


Hmm. I'm not sure whether today is turning out to be a really productive day, or just a day that a lot of things are getting done.

I'm polishing off some of the last art projects, still working on a few, and opening up some time to start working on another smaller commissioned peice. Yet, I don't feel overly productive today. Nor do I feel as though my day was wasted. No procrastination today, sorry. It's just strange feeling in limbo like this.

Hmm.

Maybe it's just the thought floating around my head that this can't last forever -- this freelance work. At this point, I've got maybe one more month, and then, well, .... I'll have to be looking at other things. Not a fun horizon to be thinking about.

I'm dreading the pending decision -- the one I have to make this month. Get a full-time desk job, probably meaning a search resulting in a lot of disappointing rejection letters, and in a field totally opposite my personal interests -- one that will provide greater job security and more steady income.... or, hit the local low-paying acting scene where my heart keeps prodding me to go, but security and pay are not plentiful. The last time I tried an intensive search for a good job, I had to settle for working at Barnes and Noble.... and choking down some really annoying store politics. Many of you here already know how much fun that was.

Hmm.

Well, my personal goal is still to be engaging myself in things I have a passion for. It's been working pretty well this far (since I left Barnes and Noble) but, unfortunately, like I say, I think I'm starting to see the end of the tunnel. And that's not a tunnel I want to see the end of.

Pray for me. I hope I don't have to go back to things I have no heart for.

...Then again, if you know of a job opportunity up my alley, I'm all ears. If it involves creativity, heart, and variety, then maybe I'm your man! .... My eyes and ears are starting to look in that direction again. Maybe we can both cut our searching short.... [wink, wink].

Well, we'll see how things go. But for now, I'm going to enjoy another evening of artwork, while I still have it!

Until next time,

Your happily blogging friend,
-Jon
posted by Jon at 8:03 PM  I   I  0 comments