"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
-- The Bible: I Corinthians 13:4-8
There is no better explanation of what love is than this! Think of the kind of world we would live in if everyone practiced this kind of selfless Christian love.... Love selflessly, and follow that perfect example of love.
The highpoint of my day Friday was a visit to campus. It was late when I was finally able to stop by, but I had two things to take care of.... drop off a portrait I drew for a friend and borrowed to include in my Spring Senior Art Show, and, return some CD's Hannah had lent me. I left the portrait at the apartment of the first friend, and arrived at the dorm room of the second, only to stay and enjoy the company of a few amusing and thoroughly interesting friends.
...You know, just spending that time laughing with friends really reminds you how powerful the gift of laughter really can be. They say it can be a really effective medicine for the body and soul. I don't doubt it. When I returned home later on, I was happy, smiling, and my heart was refreshed. Never underestimate the 'healing' power of laughter shared among friends!
I was listed on the schedule for today as working another evening shift. The kicker however was that I was 'on-call.' What this meant was that I was to call work an hour before my scheduled time to start and find out if I was needed to come in or not, due to the store being short-handed for some reason or other. As it turned out, they were doing well, and didn't have any no-shows.... so I was given the day off and told that I did not need to come in. I suppose I won't complain, but I could have used the hours, and the pay.
So, since the day was another one around the apartment, I made the most of it.... by doing very little by way of stress-inducing activities.... Ahhhhh.... Yeah, nice and relaxing. ... [smile]
I've discovered that one of my old favorite television shows (from before it went to cable, during the days I did not have cable access), is on every day at noon. Ever heard of the series (which I believe has ended now...) called "Sliders"?.... Well, since I usually get scheduled to work in the evenings, I'm still around the apartment at noon. I get to watch the show again, every day, on the Sci-Fi Channel -- How cool is that! ... And, it just so happens, they're starting from the begining! Am I lucky or what!?
Later in the day, I decided to, for the first time in what seemed like ages, pull out my collection of computer games and play one. I have not had the time to just sit down and play games. I guess today was my lucky day! .... SimCity 3000 grabbed my interest and, unfortunately, hooked me. I can't complain though, it is a rather engaging game.... and I'll probably play it some more tomarrow as well, especially since I also have Friday off.... (don't worry, starting next week, I'm working full-time again.)....
Then, this evening, on a whim, I decided to watch the Star Trek: DS9 syndicated episode at midnight. Oddly, it was one I've never seen before. Usually, since I am such a huge Star Trek fan, I've watched nearly every Star Trek episode (from every series, except the Original Series) at least once, save a few of the seventh season DS9 ones that I missed for some reason or other. This repeat this evening must have been one of those 7th season ones I missed. ...Good episode I thought... but then again, I am a Star Trek fan, and I'm generally loyal to the franchise anyway. ... [sarcastic chuckle].
Well, I guess it was just another whimsical day in my corner of Milwaukee. Tomarrow, Friday, I have a few erands to run, so, though I will be off work, I also won't be around the apartment all day. I suppose that can only be a good thing.... I do need to get out more.
Well, g'night all. I'll catch you with another post or two sometime Friday. Until then, God bless.
I sit here now typing, in the hopes that I'll be able to get all caught up on my posts. Who knows how much I'll actually write... It's Wednesday night right now. As it just so happens, this is my second day off of two much appreciated days away from the workplace. I just needed to unwind a bit I guess. I love my job, just not working so many consecutive hours and shifts without the possibility of creativity. I ... must ... find .... creativity ...
Monday was a long shift of eight hours behind the register, which meant that I got home around 1am Tuesday morning, went off to bed, and slept in until 11am. As luck would have it, it was Tuesday and today, Wednesday, that would be days off. Tuesday saw me head out for a few errands and some banking in the afternoon, and then enjoying the season two premiere of the television show, Smallville, of which I am a huge fan.... Today, Wednesday, saw me relaxing and enjoying the all-new episodes of Enterprise and The Twilight Zone in the evening. I thought both were enjoyable .... to say the least...
.... Yeah, I know, an exciting two days off from work.... Bleah.
I still sit here though and my mind wanders..... And I think, ... I need to get out more. I need to find more opportunities to socialize. I need something new in my life; something different, but what?
...Unfortunately, however, I keep coming right back to those questions. .... I have a feeling I'll be pondering this for most of the night, and into tomarrow. At least I'm not brain dead yet, right?.... [chuckles].
I'll catch you all on the flip-side tomarrow, unless I break out of this circle of questioning in my brain and fall upon some kind of revelation. Take care. I'll write again on Thursday/Friday.
Well, I've finally sat down and had the time to write about this past Sunday. I've been pretty busy since, but now I think I can put my fingers to keys and share the events of a wonderful day.
Saturday I had talked on the phone for a bit with Hannah (who, for those of you new to this blog, is a treasured female friend of mine whose name I have decided to substitute with 'Hannah' to protect her identity.... Go figure. [smile]...). ... She invited me to join her for church, via foot (in other words, we would be walking there). It was decided that we would attend the early service since I had to work later in the day, and she had also invited me to join her for brunch in the campus cafeteria.
So, planning behind us, Sunday rolled around, and I awoke happily to a new day about 6:30am or so. I showered, got dressed and by 7:30 or so was waiting to meet up with her outside my apartment. A few minutes later, she arrived, smiling and carrying two coffee-flavored beverages. Greetings exchanged, we departed for the remainder of the journey towards the local WELS Lutheran church.
As we walked, the conversation varied from topic to topic, as such does between two good friends who have not seen each other in a while. I found myself enjoying that contented feeling of being able to spend time with someone important to me -- a friend whose friendship means a lot. Then again, maybe it was just Hannah.... She seems to have an aura about her that both intruiges as well as provides for an easier opportunity for friendship. .... Perhaps I should put it in layman's terms, .... I 'like' her.... but even saying that is an understatement. There is much much more to this relationship, and it perhaps can be best explained simply, as a deeper spiritual friendship... moreso than most people take the time to develop. I like that. Perhaps that is what makes this friendship so special. :)
Well, anyway, we eventually arrived at the church, though unfortunately a little late. Hannah usually goes here every Sunday, though by herself. Today was a little unsual in that despite the fact that we were about ten minutes late, we only were there for twenty minutes of the service. Ironically, this Sunday was host to only a half hour service to accomodate some kind of church-member-related Q and A small group discussion format regarding the outreach of this congregation. As neither Hannah nor I were really church members there, our presence wouldn't have been of much use. So, in essense, she and I ended up walking all that way only to be there for the last twenty minutes of the service. Oh, well, the sermon was good, and it did provide an opportunity to reflect a bit as we walked back towards campus.
Since we had ended up missing some of the already shortened church service, Hannah and I decided to return to the campus and have a little devotion of our own. We ended up, rather randomly, picking the topic of Christian wisdom. For the next hour or so, we had a thoroughly invigorating, and thought-provoking discussion. By the time we concluded discussing the topic, I, personally, felt as if I had gotten more out of the whole discussion than I usually do from most chapel or church services! Again, though, Hannah is a good one for thought-provoking devotions, so that does make sense I suppose. I just wish sometimes that I knew more fellow Christians like her who have such a zeal for the Lord in their lives. Just think how spiritually invigorating Christian fellowship could be!
After our devotion/discussion wrapped up, the topic returned to being a variety of intruiging choices. ... She even lent me a few Christian Contemporary CD's from her collection. I am finding that I rather like her tastes in music for the most part, and I am eager to give the CD's a listen....
Brunch rolled around, and just my luck, one of the entre's in the cafeteria was omlettes! I love omlettes ... with 'the works' (basically an omlette with all the omlette fixings)! ... Many thanks to Hannah for 'treating' me to such a delicious midday meal!
But alas, time flies, and as such, I had to head out to catch my bus to work. Even though it was Sunday, I still was scheduled for a full eight hour shift at the bookstore. I enjoy work, but I wasn't as excited as usual to be working that day. Oh, well, I still get payed, weekly, which is nice. I suppose I needn't complain. A paycheck is a paycheck....
Anyway, a little over eight hours later, I was waiting at the at the bus-stop for a 12:45am (Monday morning) bus home. ... and it was COLD out! Silly me, I neglected to bring my coat.... When I did get home, and made it to bed, I made good use of my warm comforter. I've made a point of bringing my coat to work since then! ... [chuckles]....
No, don't worry, I have not died.... [chuckle]..... I've just found myself, these past few days since my last post last Wednesday, rather milked to the bone with odd hours at work, and struggling to find time to sleep and take care of everything else that I've needed to do everyday. It's been such a sudden turn of events for me that I think it's just now that I am starting to find myself catching up to where I need to be....
That being said, and an appology that I have not been able to post since my Wednesday post last week, I think I shall quickly recap where I have been. Sadly, once again, my daily posting schedule here has been knocked out of whack... I'm realigning it now. :)
Thursday saw me working a rather typical shorter 4pm-9pm schedule at Barnes and Noble. It was a pretty typical day at the registers and working the floor (sales floor that is).... Not much that comes to mind worth noting at the moment.
The killer came into play on Friday though. They wanted me in from 9am-5:30pm. Having gotten home the night before by about 10:30pm due to my dependance upon the bus, and then eating a belated dinner, I got to bed sometime between midnight and 1am. That left me with not even six hours of sleep before the morning shift. Thankfully, though, I did make it through the day with my smile and friendly attitude at the registers..... But I was dead tired when I made it back home. Dinner, and bed followed.
I did not work on Saturday, but rather slept, and then awoke to a day of errands and such. I was not able to find a whole lot of time to be online, and, when I did, was very unmotivated to write anything. Hannah called in the early evening and we talked for a short bit, though not for long since she remembered she had an activity to attend there on campus. Before the conversation ended, she invited me to join her on her walk to a nearby WELS church for Sunday service. Since, unfortunately, I was also scheduled for an eight-hour shift on Sunday, starting at 1:30, she and I made plans to walk to the early service, and then she offered to treat me to brunch in the campus cafeteria before I had to run out and catch my bus to work at 12:30.... Needless-to-say, I was VERY excited for the invitation and the opportunity to spend time with such a treasured friend.....
.... But more about my Sunday, later today -- Monday, after I return from work. Yes, unfortunately, I also work today as well.... good 'ole eight hour shift again. I probably shouldn't complain though, I'll be getting a nice paycheck come Friday. ... [grins].
Well, anyway, I'll be back from work probably about 1am early Tuesday morning. After a little something to eat, I'll likely pop online again and write some more, starting with my exciting Sunday yesterday! .... I just KNOW you wanna hear about it, so stay tuned! ... [chuckle]....
Well, time to get myself ready and off work again. Take care all, and have a blessed Monday. Look for more from me right here on Tuesday sometime. God's blessings.
Wednesday again saw me experiencing a typical day. I think I should start getting a little worried about this. Thus far, typical days are a little more frequent than I would like, and so far, a 'typical day' means not doing much of note... around my apartment (day off from work) -- not good.
I didn't actually stick around the apartment on this day off though. I figured I'd better go back out to my old Office Max and make sure there were no outstanding paychecks sitting there waiting for me. There weren't. Bummer, I was sort of hoping, deep down, that there were. I could have used it right about now....
.... My trip wasn't all wasted though, as I also took the opportunity to pick up a few items from the grocery store that I needed, and take care of a few other errands in that part of town. I returned home around dinner time, and that's when the issues of concern really came up....
See, my sister, Rachel, is also interested in being an actor... professionally, as I am. Right now, she's a year behind me in her schooling, and while I am graduated and out in the world already, she's still a college senior. At this point, in terms of finances, time, and such, I, personally, think I would be taking on a little bit more than I should handle to preceed further into my acting career. I need to get settled before I take any serious leaps. I do aim to as soon as I am able, but I also know that, for a number of reasons, this is not quite the right time yet. I hope to give it a few months and then dive in as deep as I can go, pursuing what I enjoy most and want to do with my life...
But I diverge somewhat...
What concerns me, along these lines, is that my sister has gone out and gotten what she calls a 'manager' for her acting career (which, need I say, she is not able to jump into either since she is still in school and has a few other things on her palatte yet too.). Her 'manager' cost her $250! Yeah, that concerned me a bit.... See, I've always been under the impression that an agent is perhaps the best route to go to get started in terms of seeking out casting/audition opportunities. You work with them, submit your resume(s) and, if they choose to represent you, they use their resources to help you find paid acting opportunities. You do not pay them up front to do this, and they only get paid if you find work. Then they get a 10 percent cut of what you make from that job. If you are asked to pay up-front to be represented, then you can expect your being scammed somehow.
I talked with Rachel about this whole thing this evening. I guess I didn't quite understand her and we ended up talking past each other. She seems completely fine with the whole thing. But, strangely, it sounded a bit fishy to me. Sure, I'm naturely rather skeptical and cautious, but deep inside this just sounded, to me, like a really stupid idea for her to put herself into. Paying $250 to essentially be represented, and have someone do the same kind of work that a regular bonafide talent agent would do. Seems strange to me. Sure, maybe they say they offer to do more than a regular agent would do, but from the sound of it, where's the hardcore proof?... From what Rachel says, it's all mostly word of mouth.... Hmmm.
Hey, who knows, maybe this 'manager' thing Rachel got herself into is legit. I don't know. I don't think it's something I would have jumped into though, especially this early in my acting career. What adds to the uncertainty, and concern on my part is that this 'manager' (or company or whatever it is) CAME TO HER with the invitation to join. Umm, yeah, and where did they get her name from? Rachel isn't even sure. ... I don't know, I guess I'm just concerned for my sister. It just seems like way too big of a jump to take, and with so little experience and a whole heck of a lot of trust on her end.... But, who know's, maybe I'm just jealous of the 'success' she says she is finding? .... [sigh].
While I was mulling this over after we talked, my roomate, Noah, brought up certain issues of financial concern again that got me a little on edge and probably a bit worried. I still get the impression he thinks I'm a bit incompetent or lazy. He and I are so different. He's a skilled car mechanic (with a 'mechanically-inclined' personality) and only has an Associates Degree. I, on the other hand, am the artsy one in the apartment, something he seems to shy away from... and, I have a four-year Bachelor's Degree in Art, and lots of study in acting. Needless-to-say, we are a bit different in terms of what motivates us. It's just a little hard to determine exactly how he regards me at times.... And I think he has concerns of his own, but I can never get him to bring them up, especially those that might involve us both. He's usually a great apartment-mate, but I seriously wonder what goes on in that head of his sometimes.
Ah, well.... I think that's enough ranting for today. I know I have a lot on my mind lately.... I just wish this concern for my sister, and these comments from Noah didn't have to come up today. I guess I just wasn't prepared for them.
But, alas, life does throw curves. You just gotta keep swinging away and trying to hit them. For now, I'm going to bed so that I can look at tomarrow with freshly rested eyes, an open mind, and once again, my smile and 'make-the-best-of-things' attitude. ...Besides, it's back to work for me, and I want to be able to get up and tell myself to enjoy the opportunity. Afterall, life is what YOU make it, right?
Thanks for listening/reading. Have a wonderful Thursday!
Well, I think I'm off to bed now.... at slightly after 3am Wednesday morning. Not much new to report here today. It was a pretty laid-back day to be honest. Spaghetti for dinner was good.... I was able to finally launch and draft my second fantasy football league today.... Oh, yeah, and I happened to catch one of my favorite Star Trek: Deep Space Nine episodes this evening...
Monday wasn't too bad of a day. I was able to sleep in, just because, only due to the fact that I was scheduled to work starting at 4pm. It was to be a long eight hours at Barnes and Noble, but, nonetheless, I was determined to enjoy the opportunity. I caught my 3:07 city bus past my apartment and headed out for another full shift of book selling.
You know, I must be more of a 'people person' than I sometimes give myself credit for. I think that's what I am enjoying most about working there at Barnes and Noble (BaN). So far I've been spending most of my hours on the clock at the cashwrap (registers). I've usually had the mindest that the cash registers in a store are a rather menial and thankless job. I think I've hit the motherload here though. ... there are a lot of intruiging people that shop in a bookstore. That, and the overall environment just seem to make the whole work thing there enjoyable. Who knows, I may grow tired of it eventually and decide that I need to move on to something else. For now though, I'm enjoying it. Time flies by and I get to interact with people. Works for me. ... Now, if only I can speed up finding more notable success as an actor, I think I'll be set! ... [grins]
I found today at the BaN cashwrap to be a little bit more enjoyable that usual. I ended up working with a young woman by the name of Emily, who, like me, was a new hire. She'd been on the job about as long as I have. It was nice to be able to have someone else like that to relate to. She's actually a college freshman at Mount Mary College, and I am, well, a college graduate.... so, essentally, we had college experiences to chat about in our downtime. I enjoyed that. I did have to be careful though not to influence her with my tales of the negatives of college, but she seemed eager for her post high school education, so it's doubtful that anything would have dampened her enthuasm... [chuckles].....
...I tell ya, there are some very intruiging people at Barnes and Noble, whether employees or patrons! [smiles]
I actually worked till close, which obviously meant a late night. I was let out for the night at about 11:40 (store closes at 11pm), and after grabbing my two busses home (including the second 12:20am bus, whose driver is starting to know me by name), I walked into my apartment at about 12:35 early Tuesday morning. I han't had dinner yet, so I made up something, careful not to wake Noah with the clanking of pots and pans. A little television, a satisfied stomach, and about and hour and a half later, I was off to bed.
I woke up this morning, Tuesday, rather well-rested. I don't work today, so this is another day to catch up on my ongoing personal projects. Ahh.... this looks like it'll be a nice day. Maybe I'll go for a walk later this afternoon? Hmm, we'll see about that. ...[sidweays grin]... It sure is a nice day out!....
Sunday was an interesting day, and I certainly like interesting days! ... Unfortunately, though I did go to bed when I said I would on Saturday night, I did not sleep well. Actually, I didn't really sleep much at all. So, knowing me, I decided maybe if I hopped back online I'd be able to tire out my eyes and then finally be able to go to sleep.... It eventually worked, and by early morning (a lot later than I would have liked) I finally found sleep.
Today, Sunday, I had plans to attend an initial table reading of that independant film I am in, "Bound to Come Around." Since a lot of the film is actually shot on locations on my old campus, the reading was held there. It was scheduled to start at 1:30pm. Unfortunately, though I did not see it at first, going to bed late like I was sadly relegated to doing, doomed me. I set my alarm for about noon (yeah, I know, I missed church...) I figured that would give me ample time to wake up, grab a shower, and walk to campus - a 15-20 minute walk from where I live.
Plans didn't go quite like that though. My alarm went off, I turned it off..... and went back to sleep. Bad Jon. Just by luck though (and partially due to my internal clock), I woke at 1:12pm. Not good. I quickly got ready to head out, and set my feet to the pavement. I arrived on campus by about 1:50pm.... [sighs]
I didn't miss much though, thank goodness. I joined right in and all went well. I will have to be honest, this is the first time I heard the script read myself, and honestly, my first real taste of what I had been cast in. Before this, all I knew was a synopsis, and a one line description of my character. The truth is, I really, really (did I say 'really' yet?..), really like this script. I know it's my opinion, but I do think this is going to be good movie. The writer/director's vision really impresses me. But then again, I'm just a big fan of good romantic comedies ("The Cutting Edge", "Say Anything", "Notting Hill".... etc come to mind...). I really like this one, and I'm thrilled to be able to be a part of it! I can't wait until principle filming starts in December!
While I was on campus today for this reading, I saw Hannah. Hannah is the friend who, I suppose you could say, would be the 'female lead' in the 'romantic comedy' of my own simple life. We're both good friends, but strangely our friendship sometimes feels deeper and more rooted, perhaps on a spiritual level, than your average friendship. That's just me talking though. I try not to show it much... I don't know why. I guess I'm just really uncertain when it comes to a relationship with someone like her. Every time she and I are able to take the opportunity to chat, whether in person or on the phone, it's almost like the opportunity rejuvinates me somehow. It's almost like she has a zeal for the Lord and life that's contagious, and I want to learn how to find that kind of zeal.... There's just something about her that I can't place my finger on -- something about her personality, her smile, her friendship.
... Like I say, in any given romantic-comedy film, I'm the guy who is somehow drawn to this one certain woman, but for deeper reasons than just physical beauty, but, .... he doesn't know how to show it, or if by doing so, he'd be venturing where he does not belong. Hannah's that woman. (Hmm.... sounds kind of like the plot of this film I am in... Maybe that's why I like it so much. I can almost literally put myself into the lead role of Tate.... [raises eyebrow]...)
Well anyway, getting back to my visit on campus...
I was unable to stick around and chat with Hannah. I had things I had to get back and do in and around my apartment. I felt bad jetting like that though. It's been a rather long time since I have seen her. I miss that. Ironically, though, as it turned out, I actually ended up taking a nap after returning home, and never really got to these things until now anyway.... I'm such a slacker... LOL!!!
Oh, but, my walk back from campus to my apartment was interesting. As I was nearing home, on my block, along the major street by where I live, I heard something completely unexpected.... Somewhere in one of the backyards on my block, someone was playing the bagpipes! ... No, really, I'm serious. It was a real live Milwaukeean in their backyard playing away on the bagpipes. They were pretty good too, but obviously no Scotsman Highlander as they often stopped and restarted. Obviously they were practicing. What interested me most is that the sound of a skilled babgpiper is not something you expect to hear coming from such a nice residential neighborhood, and in Milwaukee no less!
Well, intruiged, I decided to try and find the source of this harmonic music (I actually like Scottish/Celtic music). You'll never guess where it was coming from....
... I live on the same block as a small two-engine fire department... yeah, a fire station. You know how they have a front and a back garage entrance for the firetrucks to enter?... Well, a young fireman, maybe in his mid to late twenties was standing in the open back garage entrance, pumping away on the pipes! The music was echoing through the garage, and out into the neighborhood. I just happened to hear it as I walked by the front of the firestation (which was not open). That's just not something you see, or hear, everyday!... but it sure sounded great to my ears, so ain't complainin'!!! [smiles]
But alas, time has passed, and my day has now come to a close. I'll probably, by choice, be up later tonight. I took that nap earlier today though, so I'm good. Besides, I don't start work until 4pm today (Monday). I can be up by noon, after six to eight hours of sleep, and still have time before I need to catch my bus to work. Unfortuantely, I work the evening shift until close. That means, I'll get back home from a long day of work at 1am early Tuesday morning. Good thing I don't work on Tuesday! :)
I suppose, though, it's time for me to return to the odds and ends I have not gotten to yet. ... I'm such a night-owl aren't I?... lol.
Have a wonderful Monday everyone, and I'll write again probably early Tuesday morning after I am back from my long evening shift at work. Feel free to leave a comment, I'd love to hear from you.... Until then,
Yeah, I guess there's really very little to say of Saturday. I was working on various little projects here and there to keep busy, ... nothing all that serious. Ironically, I actually ended up staying up later than I had hoped on Friday night, and as such actually slept in Saturday morning -- a lot later than I had hoped.... At least I'm well-rested. ....Even if I didn't finish everything on my Saturday to-do list.
I suppose that means that six hours of sleep this evening will be more than enough. Since I'm off to bed momentarily (and yes, I actually am off to bed shortly.... [lol]...), we shall see how well that works out. :)
You know, I get so caught up in certain projects that I take upon myself to do, at any given moment, that I get behind in some things.... I'm already behind by a day on my Daily Musings. Bad Jon.
It's not that I'm swamped with work, quite the opposite actually. It's just that I'm the kind of person that thrives best when I keep myself occupied. I actually get rather easily tired of sitting in front of the television just 'vegging'. I honestly have to get caught up in an intruiging show or program to want to stick around. .... And I hate channel-surfing. Bored channel-surfers really annoy me, but then again, by nature, I think I just have a much longer attention span than most people.
Well anyway, I suppose I should get caught up on these past two days shouldn't I?.... [smile]....
Thursday, I worked. Barnes and Noble.... Cash registers. I enjoyed it. Honestly, I did, and the time (about six hours) just flew right by. I liked that.
My shift ended a little after 9:30pm, and I got back home closer to 11pm. Noah worked late too (a rarity at the car dealership he sells parts at), and so we both actually got back home relatively about the same time. Ironically, we ended up talking for quite some time, just chatting about a number of things. I really don't recall what we starting talking about, but somehow we ended up talking for almost an hour about alcoholic beverages. Yeah, I know, not really something I knew a lot about before our conversation drifted that way. Noah drinks socially, -- occassionally (within reason of course). I don't touch the stuff -- any of it.... I just don't drink. Period.
Ironically, I did enjoy hearing his tales of his experiences with various 'beverages', and about his one time being quite drunk (and never drinking to that extent ever again. He made a big point about that fact.). He also explained a lot about the various available beverages you could find in any given bar. Rather interesting stuff. I'm still not interested in drinking though.... [chuckles]
We talked rather late (for him anyway.). That was perhaps not a good thing though since he had to go to work early Friday morning. I have the weekend off, before picking up quite a few more hours next week. I guess Noah was tired Friday, but then again, it just wasn't a good day for him at work anyway -- dull and plodding (as he noted later in the early evening.). I, on the other hand, slept in, was well-rested, and didn't do a whole lot worth much note.
Basically, though, my Friday just saw me sleeping in, then working to promote my fantasy football league online, taking care of a few emails, walking to campus to pick up a book that was on hold for me in the campus library, visiting friends for a little, grabbing a pizza from the grocery store on the way back, cooking it up (and adding more cheese -- I like cheesy pizzas... [lol]...), and watching, of all things, the movie "Duece Biggelow, Male Jiggelo" on TV. I've never seen that film before, and since it was on the Fox affiliate anyway, why not, right? Originally, I'd been told that it wasn't as raunchy as the title would suggest. That actually turned out to be a true statement. There were some sexual references, but overall, the story wasn't that bad. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'll be honest, I did enjoyed the film. (Oh, and by the way, I am picky when it comes to movies I stick around and watch. To say I enjoyed this one, is a compliment to the film, despite certain sexual references that could have been left out.).
But alas, I guess that's about it, for right now anyway. ...
... I seem to lead such a relaxed life, don't I?... [chuckles].... It only seems that way, based on what I write here though, trust me. ... [laugh]
Well, I don't think I'm going to pull as late a night as I did last night. I do have things I want to take care of tomarrow.... possible errands to run, and projects to keep me busy. I don't want to sleep away my morning 'cause I stayed up late into the evening.... [grins]....
Take care all, and until Saturday... (yes, I will write ON Saturday... [shakes head in mock disappointment towards those who doubt him...]),
I was up late last night (Tuesday), but by my own choosing. I didn't work on Tuesday, so, I figured I might as well work on a few projects on my day off, especially since I didn't work today, Wednesday, either.... Needless-to-say, the project I was working on for most of those late night hours was certain graphical design changes to this website (you may have noticed a slightly different color scheme, and a 'newly designed' main page...).
Well, anyway, I don't need, or want, to get into those site updates. Suffice it to say, I like the design of my site a whole lot better than before, but that's really just the artist in me talking. When all was said and done, I probably went to bed about 4 or 5 am Wednesday morning....
I awoke, 'officially', to this day of remembrance perhaps about 12:30 pm or so. I was actually well-rested. Perhaps, though, like many fellow Americans, I had this odd feeling somewhere deep inside that something bad had happened today, on this anniversary of the horrendious attacks on America just one year ago. I got out of bed, showered (still wondering if I was oblivious to something on the news), and flipped on the television..... Thankfully, there was no new bad news to report as I had feared. Just countless reports, features, and interviews regarding the anniversary.
I actually ended up spending the majority of my day (when I was here in the apartment, and not on campus doing a little research as most of my afternoon afforded me) just sitting by the television watching the Fox News (Cable) day-long reports on the events of today one year ago, and the year that had followed until now. Call me soft-hearted if you will, but my eyes were slightly moist at times.
The events of 9-11-01 will go down in the history books and likely eventually fade to a remembrance, much like we think of Pearl Harbor, but the truth is, living in the now, and living through this, certainly gives us all (or should give us all) an idea of how important life is, no matter what race, color, or religion we are. We, as Americans, are blessed to live in a country whose ideals are founded upon freedoms overlooked in many other places of the world. We must remember those ideals and not be afraid to share them with others that they too may enjoy them someday. ... And we must strive to learn, and put into practice the ideals of love and tolerance that these inhuman, power-hungry, and perversely Anti-freedom-loving terrorists have no capacity for.
"All it takes for evil men to succeed, is for good men to do nothing."
- Author unknown
I know it probably sounds bad of me to say, but don't get me wrong, I in no way agree with the terrorist mindest.... But, I was thinking today, maybe we get so caught up in revenge (which, honestly, I think is warrented in some way or another), that we forget to see that perhaps the 9-11 attacks were a 'good thing.'
No, the loss of life, the inhuman waste of those lives to serve as unwitting weapons of mass destruction, and the innitial terrorist motivations were not that 'good thing'.... but the 'result' (from a Biblical standpoint) perhaps was. (I'm sure you've heard this before, but I feel like elaborating here anyway....).... Before the events of 9-11, we, as Americans, were essentially living the 'high life'...- impenatrable, unsinkable, overly proud, rampantly immoral,.... and forgetting about God. Like the Biblical Israelites of 'Ancient times' it took God allowing some kind of destruction or defeat of His people to set them back on the right track.... the track which included Him foremost in their lives.
Granted, times are different now, -- new technologies, new ideas, and thicker history books, -- but it still took the loss of three thousand lives, the destruction of two icons for freedom and commerce, and an attack at the heart of our military to get us to turn back to God. Ironic isn't it? Maybe there is truth to the old saying, "Times change, but people don't." I just pray that it's a long time before it takes God allowing another tragedy to bring us back to Him. We're a rather fickle people, us humans. Afterall, we are sinful. But the truth is, in a country founded on God and the freedom of religion, it's just sad that prior to 9-11, we had become so self-righteous and forgetful of that God that it took disaster to remind us.
Don't get me wrong, I love America, I truely do. I appreciate the freedoms we are granted. It's just sad how strong those parallels seemed to exist between us and 9-11, and the Israelites of old and their string of lacking trust in the Lord, disaster, and then return to Him, only to repeat the process again and again. I don't believe wholly on luck. I do believe that God always has a hand in things, no matter what they may be. Yes, America is a great nation (I won't dispute that), but we just have to remember, we, like those ancient Israelites, are not immune to the effects of how we live our lives.
A year has passed now since those deadly acts of terrorism on our country. We learned that we are not that great unsinkable Titanic of a country. We also learned to look away from our own selves and OUR accompishments and OUR OWN worth and greatness, and to see that there is a higher power we have neglected -- a God who loves us and wants us to rely more on HIM than our own deeds. I think THAT is a lesson we have to remember from all this, as we mourn the deceased, rebuild what was lost, and seek to root out those whose inhumanity and lack of love engineered all this.
"... These terrorists sought to destroy our country, but they have only made it stronger."
-- President George W. Bush
Let's not forget this lesson, and, let's remember where that source of strength really comes from. I pray that God is able to continue to work in the hearts and minds of all of us, and that we not forget to rely on Him throughout.
My heart goes out to the families of those victims, and true heroes of this sad memorialized event today. I wish everyone a blessed day today, and tomarrow,.... as we continue on with the course of these post-9-11 weeks, months, and years. God Bless.
Your fellow American, friend, or relative,
Well, Monday was day one at Barnes and Noble... Officially. I was scheduled to start at 4pm, so I actually had the morning and early afternoon to once again hang around my apartment. ....
But, eventually, I did head out to catch the bus to Mayfair. I arrived early since I was at the whim of the bus schedule, so I just walked the mall a bit and stopped in to read a few books in BAN (Barnes and Noble). At 4 pm, I grabbed the store elevator down to the basemant level where the employee lounge, administrative offices, and loading/recieving dock are located. I was briefly acclimated to a few things, and was on my way upstairs to start training. Monday I was to work at the cashwrap (cash registers) for a scheduled eight hour shift until about Midnight or so....
I actually had fun. Yeah, I know all I was doing was taking payment for the items in the store, but for some reason, I actually enjoyed it a lot. I had a few employees refer to the cashwrap position as 'hell', tedious, and long. I didn't really find any of those to be true. I was having a blast! Seriously. I'm sure it'll get annoying after a while, but as long as I rotate around the store as I've been told I'll be doing, I don't really see any major problems. That's just me though, ... you know, the guy who tries to make the best of any situation, and enjoys his station in life. Life is what you make it. If you consider what you do to be 'hell', tedious, and long and drawn out, well... then it will be. Enjoy what you've got, even if it isn't quite what you wanted.... It's still a blessing. Blessings are worth being thankful for.
I was impressed too with the calibur of people that I worked with on Monday at Barnes and Noble. They were friendly, and rather easy to get along with. I was impressed too with the collection of unique personalities present in the employees there. Whether it be the smiling, friendly, and perhaps somewhat bubbly head Cashier (whom I personally found to be a rather intruiging personality), or the witty manager on duty that shift.... or even the friendly store manager that hired me... I think I'm really going to enjoy working with those people!
Well, the store closed to the public for the day at 11pm. Since I was cashiering that day, I ended up being honored with the task of counting the cash from my drawer -- four cents short, very odd. I was eventually let off work for the day at about 11:45 pm, just in time to run all the way across the mall and catch my first of two city buses home.... I got back to my apartment at 12:37 am Tuesday morning (I know becasue I checked my watch when I entered)..... Long day!
Noah had already gone off to bed by then, so I had to keep quiet. I was hungry so I grabbed a very late dinner (hey, I hadn't had dinner yet, since I was at work... [smiles]... ). I think that hit the spot too! ... I did a little television channel surfing while I ate, and then went off to bed... Long day!... I don't work again until Thursday, starting at about the same time, which meant I was able to sleep in this morning. [smile].... [contented sigh]...
Well, that's the recap from Monday. So, until later this evening, this is Jon signing off. Have a blessed Tuesday!
"Today we mourn the passing of an old friend, by the name of Common Sense.
Common Sense lived a long life but died in the United States from heart failure on the brink of the new millennium. No one really knows how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.
He selflessly devoted his life to service in schools, hospitals, homes, factories helping folks get jobs done without fanfare and foolishness. For decades, petty rules, silly laws, and frivolous lawsuits held no power over Common Sense. He was credited with cultivating such valued lessons as to know when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm, and that life isn't always fair.
Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you earn), reliable parenting strategies (the adults are in charge, not the kids), and it's okay to come in second. A veteran of the Industrial Revolution, the Great Depression, and the Technological Revolution, Common Sense survived cultural and educational trends including body piercing, whole language, and "new math." But his health declined when he became infected with the "If-it-only-helps-one-person-it's-worth-it" virus.
In recent decades his waning strength proved no match for the ravages of well intentioned but overbearing regulations. He watched in pain as good people became ruled by self-seeking lawyers. His health rapidly deteriorated when schools endlessly implemented zero-tolerance policies. Reports of a six-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate, a teen suspended for taking a swig of mouthwash after lunch, and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student only worsened his condition. It declined even further when schools had to get parental consent to administer aspirin to a student but could not inform the parent when a female student was pregnant or wanted an abortion.
Finally, Common Sense lost his will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband, churches became businesses, criminals received better treatment than victims, and federal judges stuck their noses in everything from the Boy Scouts to professional sports. Finally, when a woman, too stupid to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot, was awarded a huge settlement, Common Sense threw in the towel.
As the end neared, Common Sense drifted in and out of logic but was kept informed of developments regarding questionable regulations such as those for low flow toilets, rocking chairs, and stepladders.
Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason. He is survived by two stepbrothers: My Rights, and Ima Whiner.
Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone."
Common Sense didn't die of natural causes. It was strangled by Political Correctness.
Article swiped from GUT RUMBLES, who in turn swiped it from an earlier long list of writers who also borrowed this article.... (This article is not of my own writing). posted by Jon at 1:29 PM I
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"Wednesday => Saturday"
Well, it appears I have a few days to recap. I haven't written since late Tuesday, September 3, but I suppose I have good reason. Actually for most of that time, I was not home... I went to visit my friend Scott about an hour north of the city....
But alas, I probably should not get ahead of myself....
The only thing that really sticks out in my memory as worth noting from Wednesday is that my computer monitor finally decided to go evil. Yep, that's right, evil!.... Well, actually it's just dying on me, but, evil sound so much more dramatic.... [lol].... Truth is, I think something is wrong with it, maybe the bulb inside, I don't know. If I have been using my computer for some time, and the monitor is warm from use, I'll then turn it off and go do something else. Later, when I return, it does not turn back on. If the monitor is cold from being off for a good amount of time, it'll turn on just fine, but after about half an hour, I'll start smelling a faint overheating smell, and that's when I figure it's time to turn her off again..... Oh, well, I guess it's just a sign that the monitor is coming to the end of it's prime operational life, and it either needs some new component, or it needs a funeral. :)
Thursday, Scott called, and we both decided to get together and do something while we still had the chance. He and I both start work tomarrow -- Monday (at our respective places of employment.... me at Barnes and Noble; Scott at some insurance company in the customer service department...). After a bit of a conversation, it was decided that he would drive down here to Milwaukee, pick me up, and we would return to his grandmother's house (where he lives right now) and hang out for a few days.... (an 'overnight' if you will).
Well, I was up at Scott's place from Thursday mid-day until mid-morning on Saturday. We had rented two Blockbuster movies, "Rush Hour II", and "Snake Eyes" for those few days, and I brought up two strategic war boardgames. We actually ended up playing "The Civil War" (a strategic boardgame encompassing the entire American Civil War) for a large amount of the time I was up there, but eventually decided to end early due to waning interest. At the time, however, the game was relatively still a draw, although, my Northern troops had already taken and heavily fortified his Southern capitol city of Richmond. [grins]... which was of course a nice added bonus to me... [lol]...
Anyway, overall, he and I had a great time, enjoying each other's company, chatting politics and current events, playing that Civil War game, watching those two films, purusing some of the better online comic strips, and repairing a minor (non-mechanical) interior part from his car. It was a very worthwhile way to spend a few days before the both of us start our relatively full-time jobs. Being that he and I are such great friends, it is a little depressing that we live so far apart (hey, and hour drive can be a lot between two good friends), but it is nice that we still are presented with opportunities to get together from time to time.
Once I got back to the city, though, I guess I neglected to post for Saturday, but, honestly, not a whole lot happened that's really worth noting. Scott had lent me an extra computer monitor he had to temporarily fill in for my 'aged' one, ... at least until I can get out and pick up a replacement. I'll be honest, it is nice not having to worry about my monitor blowing up in front of me. I plugged it into my trusty CPU, and thus far, it's working well... (and putting my dying monitor to shame... lol..).
Later on Saturday, my sister came over and she and Noah had decided to rent a movie. They invited me to join them.... It turns out that, for some odd reason, they chose "Not Another Teen Movie." I ended up staying in the living room for the duration that it took me to finish my dinner (a very appetizing pepperoni pizza!...), and then, finding myself sickened by the crass, sexual 'jokes' permeating the film, I left them to their movie and found something else to do. ... That was definitely NOT my kind of movie, and you probably will never see me watching it again!
But, now, as I look at my computer clock, I see that it is 1pm on Sunday, and I'm back online again, typing this actually. I'm caught up now, though, so I think I'm off to take care of a few other things.... I'll post again later this evening. So, until then, take care, and have a blessed Sunday!
... (and stay away from crass movies driven by blatent sexual 'humor'.... Directors who direct films like that should be taken out and SHOT!.... [chuckles])
Monday was Labor Day... Yeah... [sarcastic].... No real plans for me. ...just the same old, same old honestly.... I had a lot of little things I wanted to take care of, but as things turned out, I never really got to them all....
I did catch an interesting thing on the Travel Channel last night though. They were doing a documentary of sorts on the rapidly drying up Dead Sea. Very interesting stuff. I actually found the images of this rapidly expanding salt desert to be quite poignant, especially when they showed old ships and fishing vessels sitting in the hot sun, surrounded by nothing but desert sand and cracked earth. It's rather a sad sight, when you think of it from an ecological standpoint, but from the theatrical mindest, such as I have loads of, man, that would make for an excellent backdrop for a film!!!.... [chuckles]
It actually rained last night, well, ok, perhaps 'stormed' is a better word.... lots of wind, heavy rain, thunder and an occassional lightning bolt. I actually decided to go to bed early, partially becasue I didn't want to actually be ON my computer if the power went out. Wise move, but alas, the power never did go out..... and, though, I usually love falling asleep to the sounds of a storm outside, I could not, for the life of me fall alseep. (of course, maybe I have the fact that I actually slept most of my Monday afternoon away to thank for that. I guess I just wasn't as tired as I wanted to be.)....
Since sleep was not favoring me, I grabbed a little reading time.... got bored of it, and whaddyaknow, I fell right to sleep! Crazy how the human body works sometimes though.... Oh, and I set my alarm for 10:30am this morning, and again was surprised when, just like that, I was wide awake, three minutes BEFORE my alarm went off. I must have a very reliable internal clock! ... [chuckles]
Well, I guess that's all for now. More later, I promise. Take care everyone, and until then, much love from Jon!
Well, kind of a blah sort of day here I guess. Not much happening lately (lately meaning the past two or three days or so). I pretty much spent a good deal of time hanging about my apartment, again doing any projects that came to mind to keep me occupied. ... Some website stuff, ... a little apartment cleaning, .... and so on....
... I did take a walk in the evening though... Gorgeous night! As I walked I mused upon how beautiful a world everything can be at night. Most of the time the regular Joe Schmoe doesn't really take the time to get outside and see how beautiful a canvas the night can be when you combine various streetlights, a whole slew of colored lights designed to light up various things in the city, and the general ambiance present about you from the unique textures, the night reflections and so on. It may still be the city -- the industrial capital of any given region -- but at night it sure is beautiful nonetheless!
I sit here now, though, again at my 'trusty' (though maybe I shouldn't write that too 'loudly') computer typing away. I'm up way too late again. My alarm clock says it's 4am on Monday morning already.... yeah, yeah, yeah... I know, I'm going to bed soon.... lol.... I'm just up late becasue I've been getting so caught up in projects I just keep going and going... and going... until I'm at a point that I want to stop. Hey, unless I have someplace to be early in the morning the next day, why worry so about an early morning get-up call... :)
Oh, yeah, speaking of nowhere to go tomarrow.... Barnes and Noble called today and told me my work schedule. My first actual day of work, on-the-job, is Monday the 9th of September. ... Bummer, another week of nothing really to do.
Oh, well, maybe I'll actually make an effort to put together all the acting stuff I need in order to start sending out my acting headshot and resume to area talent agencies. ..[shrugs].... I have the week 'off' (and that means with NO foreseeable obligations), I think I'm going to force myself to undertake some serious projects to keep busy. Maybe my 'week off' will prove to be a blessing afterall. [smile]
I don't think Noah (my apartment-mate) is happy that I'm hanging around the apartment and not at work all day like he is. I can understand that he is concerned that I seem like I'm being a bum, to his point of view anyway. The truth is though, I think it might be more of a matter of a small bit of jealousy on his part. I have free-time, forced upon me, and, by my patient nature, I seem to be taking everything in stride and not going too crazy about it all. I think he just doesn't like that. To him, I'm sure I appear lazy, while he's the hardworking one.... But there's not much I can do about that. That's just the way things are.
I'm the kind of person that has to be doing something to keep busy.... and if I have the time to do it right now, why can't that 'something' be the creative stuff that I like doing, and don't usually have time to dive so deeply into?
Poor guy.... I see Noah's perspective, but honestly, I have a job (finally after way too much time spent looking, though on the bright side the work payed off, right? [smile]...), I have money now thanks to my first of two Office Max paychecks, and due to an interesting turn of events, it's HIM who is borrowing money from ME to pay an important utilities bill. HA! .... So, where am I at fault? :)
I usually feel guilty when others think I'm not pulling my share, but, this time, I don't think I need to let it get to me. I haven't done anything wrong to feel guilty about, other than accepting the fact that I need only to remain patient. As much as I love the guy, he's a great roomy, but this time, he can do the worrying, ... I'm going to find ways to enjoy my week off, as much as I can, becasue come next week, I'll finally be working most of the time too!.... [grins happily].
Maybe I know why I'm feeling a little strange lately.... Maybe I really miss being in the college atmosphere. I feel so out of it. After spending four years of my life around such good friends all the time, living off campus with only one roomate, and out of the way of campus life, has me a little bummed out. I really miss those years....
Now, my life consists of getting up each day and either going to work, or hanging around finding things to keep me busy on a day off. No more are there the student-populated places around campus to go to.... No longer are there the friends to just call up and say, "Hey, wanna meet me in front of the library and go for a walk?".... No more is there even the dining hall atmosphere. (yeah, some of you may laugh, but strangely I do miss that)... No longer are there even classes to go to and new educational things to learn.... No longer are there college theatre rehearsals to eat up my evenings.... No longer is there the general hubub of a campus that is usually alive at all hours of the day and night in some way or another.... No longer are there the familiar sounds of music on too loud wafting through the thin residence walls..... No longer do I need to carry around text books and look like an intelligent college student.... No longer can I just go and hang out in the computer labs working on art projects (I don't even have those software programs on my computer!).... No longer am I in a place where news of nearly anything college-related passes around campus repidly.... No longer to I even have access to the technological lifeblood of campus for the past four years -- the intranet and the intranet email....
...Mostly, I just miss being around those friends I had for four years. Times change though. Two of my former roomates and best friends are already married and off building families. My best friend, and also former roomate of two years, lives an hour north of the city with his grandmother, and only on rare occassions does he ever get to come down here to visit (and alas with no car, I cannot go up and visit him). I now have a job -- I'm a college grad, I have to have a good job.... I literally live by myself (meaning, my apartmentmate, Noah, has his own friends he hangs out with....).
I'll be honest, other than when I go to work, or have to run an errand, I've retreated once again to the comforts of my computer. You wanna know why?.... Thats where I can keep in contact with all these friends. Friends I once hung out with on campus all the time are now spread out all over the place. ... One is living at home in California.... Another, who is in graduate school in Chicago, just got back from some hospitality work in China.... Two of my friends, now married to each other, live in Minnesota, and another friend (also recently married) is moving there shortly as well.....
Aside from the few friends still on campus, there are a few in Milwaukee here. Another former roomate and friend, and his wife (also a friend) do live here in the city, but we aren't able to get together much; we have different lives. One of my very few old highschool friends (the pastor's son from my church back home in MN), took a call to be a teacher (yeah, a teacher!!!) and the athletic director (!!!) at a WELS Lutheran school here in the city. Unfortunately, I'm not sure how to get hold of him.... Maybe I just need to go visit those few friends on campus sometime soon.... There is one there who seems to warm my heart whenever I get the opportunity to chat with her....
But the truth of all this is.... I miss the good old days. For me, lately, life is just going a lot slower than it did back then. I have a good job, I have a nice roof over my head, a paycheck to support me, and my computer to stay in tune with the outside world. Beyond that most everything else is something I miss and it's very hard to re-find.
Yeah, I know it's a bit of a bummer, and I am a little depressed about it sometimes, but I guess honestly, aside from all that that I miss, life really isn't that bad. Sure, I wish there are things I still had access to, but life moves on right? ... Oh, well, maybe I'm just not comfortable living such a slow life. Maybe I need more activity, more people to see and places to go.... more excitement. I'm happy with the simple things, I just wish they didn't always have to be SO simple. :)
Well, I've mused upon this long enough. Time to move on with my day. If you're a friend of mine, and you happen to read this, please, drop me a line sometime. Maybe we can plan something.... or go for a walk even. :)
Take care everyone. Have a wonderful day, and, for those friends of you out there that I miss..... You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Saturday I basically slept my morning and early afternoon away.... I suppose that's to be expected when you stay up until 7am that morning and don't actually go to bed till then - Bad Jon.
My afternoon was spent surfing the web and doing who knows how many different little projects. By mid evening I was so into what I was working on that I didn't remember I had not eaten dinner yet. (I have my stomach to thank though, since it's friendly little grumblings returned me to reality...). I actually did end up eating, but it was already around 11:30pm.... again, ...Bad Jon.
Oh, well, I guess really odd days like today do come around from time to time.... rare usually, but I guess sometimes you just have to go against the norm, right? I'm off to bed now though, by 1am Sunday morning -- normal bedtime hours usually. Who knows what tomarrow will bring. I really don't have any plans. We'll see.... I'll think of something, and it'll defintely be a whole heck of a lot more productive than Saturday tunred out the be.... [chuckles].